To you, I'll always go

it's always that pretty smile

hiding pain like fine wine 

walking as if her whole world didn't just tear apart

laughing as if she was ready to start

start all over again 

hiding the struggles as if it was her gain    

said it's us against the world

and I was her little girl

I can never understand who you truly are

cause whenever you show emotions,

you'd be laughing through that tear

    like no one would compare

but that ain't fair 

crying through pain never worked

she just laughed over how life smirked

she always had a solution for everything

but never really cared about anything

not even herself

she only survived for her loved ones

giving them everything that's hers

said it's the world we're up against

and pretending not to care is the only way we survive

it's only then we take a shallow dive

cause its the only way to stay alive

 was I wrong to hate you

or was I wrong to love you

I still don't understand you

but I know that I can never leave you

and I can never hurt you

like you hurt me

with your brutal yet painfully true words

even after every try, I can't hate you

cause no matter how hard I try 

when it comes to me I can only cry

thinking it was me who was always dry

my world falls apart every time I try to fix it

but I only seem to jinx it

is it me, or is it you?

you mean so much to me that I can't let go

because it'd only add to my woe

after every try

after every cry

after every promise, I make to myself 

to you I'll always go 

because deep inside even I know this cruel pretentious world

where genuinely nice people have always been hard to find 

which has always been a trouble for my mind

and I know you're the reason I'm living this life

though I was always the one you criticized

there's a lot you sacrificed

even now if I see where I started from

in the end, I'll always come around!

-Akshita Gupta